Missing Blogger!!!

No mood for blogging. Seems that blogging is just about my crap life for others to read (not myself of course) which some things may be untrue or over exaggerated. There was one period, I felt that it was totally a time waster to blog your thoughts online and why do it for others to read? The only reasonable reasoning I came up with was that I’m doing for the sake for being a norm. As you can realised how new trend of lifestyle change towards blogging, everyone is doing it and if you don't you’re missing out the fun?!! I do agree to some extend that it is fun to blog writing all your personal thoughts about what u felt, like, dislike, watever. It is something that you can share your feelings with, and hope others could read and understands your emotions.

Oh well, today is a turning point for me to bring my blog back alive. Yeah, was travelling along center road at 2.30am the fastest route back to Berwick from Cheltenham. It was a cold and rainy night, everyone were kind of tired wanted to get home quick. All normal drivers would do the usual practice stepping the gas pedal a little harder over the speed limit. All of a sudden there was this really bright light flashed right to our damn face, everyone exclaimed WTF? And, silly me looked at the speedometer exceeded 20km/h of the speed limit! Oh No ME! Here we go again over 10km/h = 3 DEMERIT POINTS and fine of $150++ again! Turned to my mates and ask anxiously whether should I double check whether there was a camera and should I smash it down if there is one?! They said don’t be crazy!?! Sad and depressed, totally stun and don’t know what to do and what will happen. Ah! Why now? I will be heading back in Singapore in a couple of days and I get a stupid flash at 2.30am in the morning? Who will help me pay my fines? License suspended? Then silly me slowed down and took a slow cruise back home. Anyway was really feeling upset and depressed. Did not know how to express my feelings to my mates, and don’t really want them to feel how emotionally stressed I am that moment. Hehe, so began to be cool! Takes happy deep breath (breathing without disappointment), try to joke about incidence and not make myself annoying and annoying. Usually, I will be frustrated and put people into my situation making everyone’s day depress and so on. There was twice where I got into a situation of getting parking fines and was so upset and keeping maddening like my grandma the whole way back home. But this time I sort of kept it to myself which is a change!! I have grown! Quite happy with my new character but still emotionally hurt inside my heart! Felt like some bow spear through it.

So thanks to the invention of the blog! Where I can share the bad moments with it without making it feel bad, with no frustrations like looks or feelings! Yeah can happily express wateva I feel and let the emotions go! He-he unless you people read this entry and comment it, but doesn’t matter by the time I read the comment it will be over I guess? Don’t think much people will read it and hope they don’t find my blog and read this entry. Oh well, I kinda see the fun of blogging my thoughts and reading what I wrote =) maybe I should blog more often! He-he now I have to pray hard that the pictures will turn out blurry. Or maybe should I think of other alternatives like writing a letter saying that’s why I’m speeding because I was scared of dark?